I've been thinking about what holds me back from doing the things I really want to do. It's not for lack of motivation or desire that I don't do these things. In fact, I make plans and lists as to what I want to draw, or design if it's a card image. But the plans go nowhere, and after awhile I get frustrated with myself for not following through. Then I sit back and do nothing with my evenings - just watch TV evening after evening. What a waste of time that is! Then I berate myself for wasting time, not being creative, and not using my God-given talent for creating art. Someone who can draw the way I can shouldn't waste that gift. You won't believe how often that little maxim goes through my head - to the point where I start feeling guilty - inflicting self-imposed guilt upon myself. Who needs that? No wonder I can't create anything feeling like that! I got tired of that endless scenario. So I made myself look at why I do this. And it's no surprise - I'm sure many people know this, but you have discover it for your own unique self, but it's fear. Fear is the reason behind all my procrastination. Fear is such a simple and silly thing once you lay it out on the tabel and cut it apart.
My fear lay in using materials that I'm not experienced or familiar with. I'd really like to use this medium for my art, but it's not who I am. Funny thing, that I attach my medium of choice to my personality - I think that's worth exploring also (in another post, of course!). I could get experienced with practice, but the practice is a whole other area involving supplies, which involves money, space, time, etc. In short, I'm not willing to experiment for a myriad of reasons. Having come to that conclusion, the only logical thing to do is to be creative with what I already know, what I am experienced at, and just DO IT! Now that I've figured this out, there is NO EXCUSE! Oh my, now this means that I have to sit down and make art! Wow wee... I should be grateful - and I AM! I am ever so grateful that I have the ability to create art - it's one of the most satisfying feelings in all the world.
Wouldn't you agree - all you fellow-artists, out there?
Cheers to all the artists - may we be creative and prolific today!
About Me
- Kitty Sparrow
- I love creating art and writing poetry. Journaling is something I can spend hours on - writing and illustrating my day either by drawing, or by creating Silly Pages. I also love the idea of involving the post office in art!
1 comment:
I know what you mean. This sounds like me this past few years as well. And with all the reading of art blogs i've done online (my procrastination weapon of choice), it sounds like a LOT of artists. We are not alone!
Fear comes in many packages. Fear of different mediums (like you said), or in my case fear of failure as well as fear of success! Try THAT hat on! :-P
I'm glad you've figured out that for now, you need to focus on "your" medium. You do beautiful work, and once you get back on that horse, who knows what direction you'll go!
*sigh* Yes, i should take my own advice and do that too! :-) Start with what i'm familiar with and see where things take me.
Let's get on our horses & ride into the sunset together, ok? :-D
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